My Hope
As the first I knew, this whispered heart was say no
for the umpteenth time. Why not? I positioned myself on the identity that I
would not be able to make him come to grip my heart. I do not want to hurt and
wallow full of hope.
But in fact he continues to haunt
the soul of this niche, he was greeting my life in every sadness that I
natural. Although he didn’t know, but I was decent that only her who was made
me trust until nowadays.
I always thought it was be the best to hide all the
feelings that exist. Although I was sick to undergone it, but this is the
beginning of my true love story.
"Raka .." she said to me.
"Nita .."
"Do you want to go to the exhibition ? "
"What’s that ? "
"Exhibition of the latest technology .. "
"Oh I think I must go home now, because there is assigment"
"Okay. No problem.. "
Lunch was really the hottest day for me, I'm lazy to met with Nita. I'm afraid to getting stuck in a belief in love with her.
The next day I attended a school meeting, you know in senior high school ?? I acted as secretary OSIS in school. Of the meeting is attended several council members who filled the room. I saw a woman was sitting with sweetly in OSIS room. Yes, she is one of OSIS members in this senior high school. But I'm not very familiar with her.
Since then, I had been beginning to find information about the girl. I’m very amaze when I was knowing that the girl is a student beside my class.
"Raka .." she said to me.
"Nita .."
"Do you want to go to the exhibition ? "
"What’s that ? "
"Exhibition of the latest technology .. "
"Oh I think I must go home now, because there is assigment"
"Okay. No problem.. "
Lunch was really the hottest day for me, I'm lazy to met with Nita. I'm afraid to getting stuck in a belief in love with her.
The next day I attended a school meeting, you know in senior high school ?? I acted as secretary OSIS in school. Of the meeting is attended several council members who filled the room. I saw a woman was sitting with sweetly in OSIS room. Yes, she is one of OSIS members in this senior high school. But I'm not very familiar with her.
Since then, I had been beginning to find information about the girl. I’m very amaze when I was knowing that the girl is a student beside my class.
Her name is
Farah. From the information, she did not like their children out of class when
recess. But she is very affable, polite, and smart.
Finally after a few days I met her, I decided to make her wanna be my girlfriend. Some days I shared with Farah, but there is something uncomfortable in my heart, Nita. Yes Nita. There is no communicate again with her.
"Hahahaha .. " My friend voice disrupt my mind.
"What’s up? "I replied.
"You know? Nita was near with a boy"
"Really ?
"Yes, of course. "
Suddenly my heart began to upset, for some sense of what I feel. I slowly walked around the classroom, I met Nita was busy talking with her friends.
"Nita? Do you like the younger classes? "I asked her.
"Yes that’s right. "
" What there is curse with him? "
"No , I'm a girl, he must start first, let him know who I’am.. "
"Oh yes , congratulation. "I said simply.
In my heart I wonder if Nita righteous that she like a younger class. Ah yes that is also not a problem for me, I have farah. And now that I love Farah, she was the most important part of my life.
Until one day I saw Nita with a boy on the stairs, they were walking towards the floor. Arriving in front of the class, they're talking serious look. Nita's looked as if expressed disappointment at the boy.
Raka also wanted to go, but it impossible. Bell was sounded, all students follow immediately go to the next lesson.
The classroom became silent, and the more surprising to me when Nita advanced to in front of the class and starts to say something.
"Guys, I'm sorry that came before to speak something, but I must say. My parents was divorcing.. "Nita said while fighting tears.
The entire contents of the class be quiet.
"And I hope all of you will come to my farewell party tonight, because since the divorce of my parents, I must choose who I must followed. Actually hard for me, but this is the best decision for me. "
The class was in tears, how not? Nita thought they were all as their own brother. Especially good attitude are owned by Nita. And, of course I'm the first friend who sad about this. I cannot control the mind. In my mind, Nita was the one who has been an inspiration to me, although Nita did not know about this.
In the evening at a café, I promise to come as a friend to attend Nita’s farewell party . Of course I go to the café with Farah.
From a distance I saw Nita's face is soft, she was talking with her friends . I immediately went to go to Nita.
"Are you sure want to come out of the city with your fathers? "I asked cautiously.
"Hey Raka .. Yes this is my decision. "
"Yeah, then I just want to gives this gift for you, remembered it"
"Thank you. Btw, Are you Farah? "
"Yes of course, this is Farah .. "I replied.
"Farah .. " Farah said to Nita.
"Nita .. "Nita said with Farah.
I saw Nita with her tears. Regardless of people who look and also Farah. I say to Nita.
"Nita, I want to tell about you, I very love you, beyond a sense of me as a friend love to you, you're the source of the spirit for me, there is no one who can replace the position you are in my heart, I didn’t know how to live without you. . "
Finally after a few days I met her, I decided to make her wanna be my girlfriend. Some days I shared with Farah, but there is something uncomfortable in my heart, Nita. Yes Nita. There is no communicate again with her.
"Hahahaha .. " My friend voice disrupt my mind.
"What’s up? "I replied.
"You know? Nita was near with a boy"
"Really ?
"Yes, of course. "
Suddenly my heart began to upset, for some sense of what I feel. I slowly walked around the classroom, I met Nita was busy talking with her friends.
"Nita? Do you like the younger classes? "I asked her.
"Yes that’s right. "
" What there is curse with him? "
"No , I'm a girl, he must start first, let him know who I’am.. "
"Oh yes , congratulation. "I said simply.
In my heart I wonder if Nita righteous that she like a younger class. Ah yes that is also not a problem for me, I have farah. And now that I love Farah, she was the most important part of my life.
Until one day I saw Nita with a boy on the stairs, they were walking towards the floor. Arriving in front of the class, they're talking serious look. Nita's looked as if expressed disappointment at the boy.
Raka also wanted to go, but it impossible. Bell was sounded, all students follow immediately go to the next lesson.
The classroom became silent, and the more surprising to me when Nita advanced to in front of the class and starts to say something.
"Guys, I'm sorry that came before to speak something, but I must say. My parents was divorcing.. "Nita said while fighting tears.
The entire contents of the class be quiet.
"And I hope all of you will come to my farewell party tonight, because since the divorce of my parents, I must choose who I must followed. Actually hard for me, but this is the best decision for me. "
The class was in tears, how not? Nita thought they were all as their own brother. Especially good attitude are owned by Nita. And, of course I'm the first friend who sad about this. I cannot control the mind. In my mind, Nita was the one who has been an inspiration to me, although Nita did not know about this.
In the evening at a café, I promise to come as a friend to attend Nita’s farewell party . Of course I go to the café with Farah.
From a distance I saw Nita's face is soft, she was talking with her friends . I immediately went to go to Nita.
"Are you sure want to come out of the city with your fathers? "I asked cautiously.
"Hey Raka .. Yes this is my decision. "
"Yeah, then I just want to gives this gift for you, remembered it"
"Thank you. Btw, Are you Farah? "
"Yes of course, this is Farah .. "I replied.
"Farah .. " Farah said to Nita.
"Nita .. "Nita said with Farah.
I saw Nita with her tears. Regardless of people who look and also Farah. I say to Nita.
"Nita, I want to tell about you, I very love you, beyond a sense of me as a friend love to you, you're the source of the spirit for me, there is no one who can replace the position you are in my heart, I didn’t know how to live without you. . "
"What are you talking about??
REMEMBER THERE IS Farah beside you.. "Nita said with a rising tone.
"Stop! "Farah stop all sounds.
"Farah .. "I replied.
"I know, just Nita in your heart, I know all from your eyes, and I conscious that you just love Nita. ! "Cried Farah.
"Stop! "Farah stop all sounds.
"Farah .. "I replied.
"I know, just Nita in your heart, I know all from your eyes, and I conscious that you just love Nita. ! "Cried Farah.
Farah runaway
and get away from Raka and Nita. Meanwhile Raka still to tells Farah about his
feeling.
"Nit, please hear me, I just love you, I know I was wrong, although Farah is my girlfriend, but long before , I've put you in position is important in life for me, I know you are not going to believe in all this, but it's real .. "
"I still can’t accept you in a situation like this. Where you go in this during? After all, the best for you had been choosing her than me? You need to know, that I am also love you, but now it's too late, things have changed, we might not be together. "
"I know you're not going to believe in me, but you're also love me?? Right? "
"IT’S SO LATE, well, it was all over, if you very love me, you couldn’t choose Farah to be your girl friend. Beside that I say thank you because you ever present in my life, but sorry I cannot open my heart to you. "
"Well if this is what you want, I have received, and you must know I prefer Farah because early on I think you can never be my girl friend. But I love you more than anyone, although that's not enough to prove and make you believe in me. You're the one my only hope and you become one of the reasons that have made me survive this long. Goodbye Nita... "
I was rushed to leave the crowded café, and now I realize love never wrong, that there are people who have made the meaning of love becomes lost confidence.
"Nit, please hear me, I just love you, I know I was wrong, although Farah is my girlfriend, but long before , I've put you in position is important in life for me, I know you are not going to believe in all this, but it's real .. "
"I still can’t accept you in a situation like this. Where you go in this during? After all, the best for you had been choosing her than me? You need to know, that I am also love you, but now it's too late, things have changed, we might not be together. "
"I know you're not going to believe in me, but you're also love me?? Right? "
"IT’S SO LATE, well, it was all over, if you very love me, you couldn’t choose Farah to be your girl friend. Beside that I say thank you because you ever present in my life, but sorry I cannot open my heart to you. "
"Well if this is what you want, I have received, and you must know I prefer Farah because early on I think you can never be my girl friend. But I love you more than anyone, although that's not enough to prove and make you believe in me. You're the one my only hope and you become one of the reasons that have made me survive this long. Goodbye Nita... "
I was rushed to leave the crowded café, and now I realize love never wrong, that there are people who have made the meaning of love becomes lost confidence.
